me.

I’ve been worrying A LOT the past few days about A LOT of things,

yes, AGAIN!

For so many years after I gave my life to Jesus, I stopped being a worry-wart but in the past 3 years it has slowly gotten BAD again.

The things I’m worrying about are normal, I guess. It’s just, I KNOW that I can’t control the outcome of anything but I WANT to!

:sigh:

The Mr. and I have been talking about starting a family lately and we finally came to the decision that it’s time. No more BCP. Funny thing is even though I’m worried about how quickly we’ll be able to get pregnant, I’m more worried about what we’re gonna do once we ARE pregnant. LOL! I mean, no one is ever READY to have a child (so I’ve been told) and there apparently is never a GREAT time to have a child and you’ll never have ENOUGH money either. I mean we’re stepping out in faith and knowing that if God is ready for us to be parents that we will be parents soon, right?

Yea, for some reason,

I struggle with that word, FAITH and I ask myself WHY all the time. There’s no reason. I mean God has provided and shown me His love so often I should be an expert at NOT worrying by now, ya know?

As I’ve sat and prayed and LISTENED lately, I’ve come to the conclusion that
it’s FEAR that grips me.
FEAR of failure...period.

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity,

but of power, love, and self-discipline." 2 Timothy 1:7

The truth of the matter is that fear isn’t even from God.
He doesn’t want me to be AFRAID. He already has a BIG PLAN!

“Do not tremble; do not be afraid. Did I not proclaim my purposes for you long ago? You are my witnesses—is there any other God? No! There is no other Rock—not one!” Isaiah 44:8

He’s had a BIG PLAN before I was even born.
I, of course, blog and light bulbs go off for me.
Venting, ranting, sharing, putting it all down here, in a notebook.
It’s where I slowly begin to understand myself, God and others around me.

This was the verse of the day that I received in my e-mail today and it was just what I needed.

"…For I am doing something in your own day, something you wouldn't believe even if someone told you about it.” Habakkuk 1:5

And even as I click the “publish” button, I am scared.

Labor Day Weekend!

It was a VERY nice weekend. We didn’t go far, just an hour away and that was Friday night into Saturday. On Friday night we got dressed up and ate at P.F. Chang’s. It was soooo good. I had Chang’s Spare Ribs and shared Wonton soup with the Mr. We also had some lettuce wraps which were AMAZING! They tasted too good to be good FOR you though. There was no way I could deny THAT!

Saturday we spent in the shopping mall where P.F. Chang’s was and did a little shopping. Like, we went to Vitamin World . Ever since I started this low glycemic, low carb, low fat thing, my stomach has been a MESS! I’ll just say it, I have trouble “going!” It’s NOT fun and it makes for miserable moments. If you have any suggestions, let me know, PLEASE! We also went to DSW Shoes where I got a pair of Naturalizer shoes for $16. GREAT DEAL! Oh and of course we went to Barne’s & Noble where we bookworms got a few books.

Oooh, we had lunch at McAlister’s Deli. The first time I had McAlister’s was in San Antonio and I was sad that we didn’t have one in the valley. (The Mr. Had never been)Well, apparently we have one now! They have GREAT sweet tea. I personally like it better than Rudy’s sweet tea.

Saturday evening we went to the Outlet Mall. I really love that place! We did a little damage but mostly only got what was needed. Unfortunately, shoes for the Mr. can be pretty pricey because he mostly goes for comfort rather than style but it’s not like we buy them ALL the time. I got a few new T-Shirts and a belt. Ah, I needed a new one. We had to make holes in the other one because it was too big so now, my belt fits! YAY!

Sunday we spent at home doing absolutely NOTHING demanding. The Mr. played video games and I played MY video game, The Sims 3. That game is addictive! It’s really kind of weird when you think about that game too. I mean basically you are controlling this little person’s life. You make it eat, go to bathroom, take a shower, get a job, get married, have babies. It’s crazy! LOL, but kinda fun.

Yesterday we went to the in-laws house and I made Baby Back Ribs. Great food, and happy in-laws. Who could ask for more?

So, Marvelous Monday’s food was Baby Back Ribs but I didn’t take any pictures so, I guess I’ll have to make them again next week. I’m sure the Mr. won’t mind AT ALL!

Hope ya’ll had a great Labor Day weekend!

~Mrs. Galvan~

Some real stuff

So, we’re getting some much needed time off this weekend.

I’m looking forward to spending a few days, ALONE with the Mr.
The great thing about our relationship is that we can sit in silence together, doing nothing, reading, writing, thinking, dreaming, planning. Not many people can do that.

SO, as we “disconnect” this weekend, please pray for us. Pray for REAL rest.

--cut to silent thoughts--

I just finished reading Mossy Lou’s blog and have been sitting here in tears at my desk. The tears have been coming for some days now.

This world is so sad without Jesus. Every single day we experience people who have no idea who He is, or what he’s done for us AND even WE take Him for granted.

I’ve taken Him for granted lately. The worst part is I KNOW that I've been taking Him for granted.

Like someone at small group said last night, “I feel as though I’ve started to turn my back on Him.” I don't want that though, that's the LAST thing I want.

With my job comes much burden and so I never stop praying BUT I feel like I haven’t been listening lately.

I have no excuses but I do KNOW that I won’t give up, I’m hanging on.

I’m grateful that His mercies are new EVERY morning and that I can start over today.

Please pray for me.